Not sure where to turn next.?

i don't see an age here but i would suggest that perhaps you speak to your minister, priest or rabbi about this and see if they can talk to your parents for you. the other things i can think of is to go to the nearest ER that has a psychiatric ward and tell them how you are feeling. a psychiatrist will be called down to talk to you to verify that you are indeed suicidal and will call your parents in for a conference and let them know that what you are experiencing is for real. this is nothing to take lightly. it is a call loudly for help. the other thing that you could do would be to hot line yourself. even if your dad gets mad at you you will have someone on your side so he wouldn't dare hurt you. they will see that you are checked out as to the possibility that you truly are suicidal and get you the help that you need. by the way my parents were like yours until i actually did attempt suicide as a teenager. i have attempted it 3 more times. i am now 55 years young and finally really got the help that i have needed for so long.